Дорис Лессинг - The Sweetest Dream стр 57.

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' That's what you are all studying, said Frances. ' Politics and economics. What is so extraordinary is that anyone should want to, when they never get it right, particularly the economists. '

This remark was so far in advance of its time that it was allowed to pass, was probably not even heard.

The evening when Franklin first came, Colin did not drop down to Frances's rooms for the usual session of accusations: he had not gone to the Maystock. Franklin was in his room on the floor in a sleeping bag. Frances could hear them just over her head, talking, laughing... her much-overused heart seemed to breathe easier, and she felt that all Colin really needed was a good friend, someone who laughed a lot: they larked about and as young men (or boys) will, went in for a lot of buffeting, pummelling and horseplay.

Franklin came again, and again, and Colin said he was fed up with the Maystock. He had actually caught Doctor David asleep, while he sat fidgeting in his patient's chair, hoping that the great man would at last say something.

'What's he being paid?' he asked.

Frances told him.

' Nice work if you can get it, said Colin. But was he bottling everything up again? Had he spent all his anger in those evenings of accusation with her? She had no idea. But he was doing badly at school still, and wanted to leave.

It was Franklin who told him it was silly. 'That would be a bad move, said he, at the supper table. You'll be sorry when you're older.'

This last was a direct quote. In any company of young people, sayings, admonition, advice, that have emanated from the mouths of parents can be heard coming from theirs, in joke, in mockery, or in seriousness. You'll be sorry when you' re older, ' had been said by Franklin's grandmother, in firelight a log burned in the centre of the hut in a village where a goat might push into open doorways hoping to find something to steal. An anxious black woman, whom Franklin had told he did not want to take up his scholarship to St Joseph's he was in a funk had said, You'll be sorry when you' re older. '

I am older, said Colin.

It was November again, dark with drizzle. Because it was a weekend, everyone was here. At Frances's left sat Sylvia, and the others were careful not to notice that she was struggling with her food. She had left the magic circle of people who could never say anything without meaningful looks and voices heavy with import, saying, just as Julia might have done, 'They aren't very nice people. ' Jake had turned up, asked to see Frances, and was clearly anxious. ' There's a problem here, Frances. It's cultural. I think we' re more uninhibited in the States than you are here. '

Im afraid you have me at a disadvantage, said Frances. ' Sylvia has said nothing to us about why she...

But there was nothing to tell, you must believe me. '

Sylvia confided to Andrew that what had 'upset' her was not wild Satanic rites that the others had imagined and even joked about, while she told them they were just silly, or seances that had gone wrong or right, depending on how you looked at it, bringing noisy apparitions with something urgent to impart, such as that Sylvia should always wear blue and a turquoise amulet, but that Jake had kissed her and told her she was too old to be a virgin. She had slapped him, hard, and told him he was a dirty old man. To Andrew it was clear that Jake had been offering arcane sexual delights, but Sylvia said, ' He's old enough to be my grandfather.' He was, too. Just.

Andrew was here for the weekend, because Colin had telephoned to say that Sylvia was having a setback. It was Colin who rang: so what did his wild ravings about Sylvia's being here at all amount to, then? You've got to come, Andrew. You always know what to do. And Julia? did she not know what to do? Apparently not any longer. Julia, hearing that Sylvia was in her room again, and not out night after night, had said in the heavily sorrowful voice that now seemed to be permanently hers, Yes, Sylvia, and that's what you can expect when you mix with such people.'

But nothing happened, Julia, ' Sylvia had whispered, and had tried to embrace her. Julia's arms, that had so recently easily embraced her, did hold her, but not as they had, and Sylvia cried in her room, because of those stiff old arms, that reproached her.

Sylvia was sitting, fork in hand, turning over a fragment of potato done in cream, cooked because she liked it.

Andrew was next to Sylvia. Colin was next to Andrew, and beside him, Rose. Not a word or a look did they exchange. James was there from his school, and he would also sleep on the living-room floor. Opposite Rose was Franklin, who had had a little too much to drink. Bottles of wine stood about the table brought by Johnny who was at his post by the window. Next to Franklin was Geoffrey, in his first term at the LSE. He looked like a guerilla fighter, in army surplus. He was there because he had run into Johnny at the Cosmo, had heard that he would be coming that evening. Sophie was not here, but she had visited that afternoon, to see darling Frances. She was finding life hard, not because of acting school where she was doing brilliantly, but because of Roland Shattock. Tonight she was with him at a disco. Next to Frances was Jill, who had reappeared that afternoon. She asked timidly if she could stay to supper. She had a bandage on her left wrist and looked pretty bad. Rose had greeted her with, 'Oh, so what do you think you're doing here?' Jill waited until there was laughter and noise enough, and said to Frances, ' Can I come and live in the other room downstairs? It's for you to say who can be there, isn't it?' The trouble was, Colin had said that he wanted Franklin to have the use of that room, and to be invited for Christmas. And, obviously, Jill and Rose could not be together.

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