Bubbles, balls, amoebas, scraps of gray mass and other rubbish moved or struggled in the girls body, trying to dodge my hands. But that was not the case. My fingers were glued to my body, filling it with a flood of light. The girl was paralyzed as if by an electric shock. She screamed in pain and fear
I realized acutely, on the level of instinct, WHAT was wrong with her. I can FIX IT in 20 minutes! Completely!!! " a burning need turned on in me. But I WAS FORBIDDEN to do this: She WILL NOT SURVIVE the complete transformation! this knowledge also naturally surfaced in the back of my head. At the same time, I couldnt let go of my hands.
Living things, quite material and tangible, continued to move under my fingers. The girl writhed and begged to be let go, but she couldnt move. My hands wouldnt work. My fingers were glued to the body. This went on for a very long minute, then the energy flow abruptly cut off. Terrified as if shed been electrocuted, she slowly got up on all fours and crawled away from me, sobbing, toward the wall, as if it would save her if I turned on again
My coach in Slavic defense practices found his voice, and began to shout that I am like a student driving a truck should look where I am going!!! The girl was sobbing in the corner of the hall. I stared at my hands with a mixture of surprise, delight, and horror. So for the first time I joined what I now call the Human System, with which I have been constantly and [now] CORRECTLY working for the last eight years.
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A couple of weeks later, the girl, still scared and very careful, let me see her again. Normal self-preservation drew her under my arms, because everybody has built-in systems, like energy sensors, that find the right currents in the world around us and draw us there.
People can feel the sources of pure energy hundreds of kilometers away; the sources of related energies remove any barriers to communication. But you need to clearly understand: this is not euphoria, but recovery or healing that is, the feeling that next to such a source, the body becomes whole. Complete, clean, and self-contained.
Other sensations are not correct effects.
Sources of pure energy make the body whole, clean, and autonomous.
Her body required repeated contact with me to get rid of the alien contents. My hands just plugged into it again. But now in normal strength. They themselves found what was wrong the memory of a past incarnation. This cast of the past, like a remnant of a badly erased program, affected her current life, created insanity, and opened a portal for alien creatures to enter her body.
I formed the ability for the memory of the previous incarnation to come out, and for the body to have the resources to transform, and thats it after a while, my next transformation forced me to leave the course. Because my measure of usefulness has been exhausted there.
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We never know for whom exactly we find ourselves in any place. We think that for ourselves, and even solve our own problems. And thats right. During those courses, I learned a lot and learned even more. But, in addition to my own goals, other peoples tasks were also solved there They were solved by my hands and within the framework of the benefits that I had to bring, but according to my upbringing, which I did not even imagine in myself.
When I answered my questions, and people answered their own, there were many insurmountable obstacles that forced me to leave the courses and continue to look for myself further.
The completion of a measure of utility is a sense of the cessation of meaning. Normally, a completed utility is the beginning of a new measure.
The meaning of my nature became clear to me: the abilities necessary for solving a specific task at a moment in time are included in me.
But its still amazing, if only because I havent even read about it. And again: all this was very puzzling to me then: why such a strange ability for the World? Why be able to do everything at once, if there are narrow specialists who are also delivered to the right places and people to solve higher issues?
You need to heal there is a healer, you need to clean the place there are psychics, you need to see the future there are seers. Why such multitasking? Who am I? What to do about it? What is my sense of Usefulness?
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What is the meaning of me? I once asked into the void.
To awaken Consciousness » was the reply.
MIRACLES AND REVELATIONS
So began the development of my gift and the concept of Consciousness, which I did not pay attention to, as something boring and obvious. But, as you know, the more obvious the phenomenon, the less we know about it.
Consciousness as a phenomenon was probably well known to the ancient Slavs. I realized this much later, when in fairy tales and legends, I began to notice nuances in the behavior of the characters that are characteristic of seers or conscious beings.
The fact that such consciousness is not obvious to our psychological and psychotherapeutic science is due to the lack of self-awareness of researchers, who find it difficult or impossible not only to interpret, but also to correctly identify its phenomena. Rather, they do not all know where to look to really see the nuances and correctly create experiments. After all, it is no secret that for one gifted researcher there are hundreds of incompetent followers who, sometimes, will twist the research and write such conclusions that it shocks you from the abundance of informational garbage. But I digress.
To me, psychological science was a dream filled with the unknown. The information space that revealed the essence of a person is full of failures and secrets. Behind every phenomenon of psychology [a phenomenon is generally a phenomenon under close attention] there are many overlapping variables; and all these variables interact with each other according to certain laws of dynamics.
It is not true that there are no laws in psychology, but only regularities. If there are laws in the work of a known carrier of the psyche the body then there are also laws in the psyche. Only they are often very veiled by compensatory mechanisms. If there is in the psyche, there is also in the science that studies it.
I once, for fun (when I was preparing myself for my dissertation and trying to identify the basics for my own practice), decomposed into components the phenomenological series of elements of the psyche found by psychoanalysts from Freud to Horney. There were only 27 elementary phenomena, which make up the entire complex phenomenological series of psychoanalysis. In each large phenomenon, these elements were combined in a different order or were not present at all.
Further, these elements easily formed into a certain level system. The levels, of course, were distributed according to the degree of energy / openness [awareness+ability to observe in the behavior] of the element. And the system was crowned with an extremely energetic level, unconscious, but obvious to the observer. Gods level, I realized, and I couldnt prove it. I lacked the data and trust of others. I made it easier: I proved the lower behavioral levels in another science-sociology.
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Our ancestors did not call Consciousness an ephemeral shared knowledge of the community, but a complex energy machine, which for the sake of simplicity of perception here I called the Human System.