How was that evident? Akiva asked his voluntary teacher.
Rachel answered patiently. It was everywhere and in everything. People overfilled the cup of His unlimited patience. Shortly before the Temple was destroyed, something happened. A wealthy man from Jerusalem held a feast and invited lots of guests including my father who was unable to attend because he was away. The man who arranged the feast had a close friend called Kamtsa and a sworn enemy, Bar Kamtsa (The story of Kamtsa and Bar Kamtsa is cited in the Babylonian Talmud, Tractate Gittin). The man sent his servant to invite his friend Kamtsa to the feast but the messenger got the address wrong and conveyed the invitation to Bar Kamtsa. Bar Kamtsa couldnt understand what was happening and asked the messenger again whether the invitation was really meant for him, to which the messenger confirmed that it was.
Deciding that his enemy must be offering a reconciliation, Bar Kamtsa suspected nothing, put on expensive clothes and went to the feast at the house of his enemy. He took his place amongst the guests but when the host saw him there, he shouted: What are you doing here? How dare you come into my house uninvited?
Bar Kamtsa realised that the messenger must have made a mistake and said, I will pay you for my portion of food, only please, do not humiliate me in front of all the other guests. Many respected people of Jerusalem are among them. How will I appear in their eyes?
The host refused to accept his request so Bar Kamtsa offered to pay for half the entire cost of the feast but the host still wouldnt agree.
I will pay for everything! Bar Kamtsa cried, Only please dont throw me out in front of all these people!
But the host refused even then and insisted that the unwanted guest leave his home. Enraged, Bar Kamtsa was forced to leave in disgrace.
And what about the guests: they just sat there saying nothing? asked Akiva.
Yes, there were many respected people and wisemen there but they chose not to get involved in the conflict. So then Bar Kamtsa decided to take revenge on the host and his guests who had refused to stand up for him. He went to see the Emperor and told him that the Jews were plotting a revolt against the Roman Empire. To prove it, he asked the ruler to send a calf to the Temple for sacrifice. On the way, Bar Kamtsa gave the calf a small injury, knowing that under the laws of the Torah, animals with that kind of blemish are unsuitable for sacrifice.
The rabbis argued for a long time over whether the calf could be used as a sacrifice or not. Many of them understood the significance of denying the Romans permission to make sacrifice and nonetheless, they turned the Roman Emperor down. The emperor was furious and sent his army into Judea. The Roman troops invaded Jerusalem, burned the Temple to the ground and sacked the city.
Its hard to say who was right and who was wrong, thought Akiva. The wealthy man who held a feast and treated his guest badly, or the wisemen, who witnessed the argument but said nothing, or Bar Kamtsa, who brought anger to his entire people on account of a personal insult.
Yes, its a difficult one. But there is also an indirect cause for what happened. It clearly reflects the attitude people had towards one another that reigned in Jerusalem at the time. Now we are left with no Temple. The Romans have taken many of Jerusalems inhabitants prisoner. My father is very worried about the future of our city and our people. He argues that without a strong leader, the Jews will never be taken seriously and the Romans will enslave us said Rachel.
Surely there isnt such a great lack of wise rabbis that none among them could stand out as a leader? said Akiva doubtfully.
Its hard to unify the people. A large proportion of the rabbis represent leaders to a small handful of students but are vindicated in the eyes of others and so theres no single, powerful force. You know Akiva, theres something I have been thinking about a lot ever since I met you. I dont know why but I have this feeling inside, that if you were literate, you could be a strong leader. You could unify everyone! Rachel admitted.
Rachel, what on earth are you saying? If those who are so highly respected cannot unite the people, what could I possibly do, a simple shepherd? Rachels words had come like a bolt from the blue.
Most of them are more concerned with themselves than with the needs of the community. Akiva, I see how you care for the sheep. You have a good heart and I think you could turn out to be a great leader, capable of uniting a lot of people around you. Why dont you want to learn to read and write and study the Torah? said Rachel trying to persuade him.
You forget, I am thirty-five years old. Its too late for me to start studying at my age Akiva said disagreeing with her.
But it isnt too late, said Rachel, if you studied hard and conscientiously then the words of the Torah would speak to your heart.
Rachel, I dont have the money to give up work and study. Thank you for your warm words. No-one has ever spoken of me so highly said Akiva, not without some sadness.
I have to go now Akiva, but mark my words, its never too late to start learning. The wisemen say that we must keep learning forever, right up until old age.
Long after they had parted Akiva continued to mull over Rachels words and everything she had said about him.
Every day, Rachel came to the river and they she and Akiva talked for hours becoming close friends. Akiva had never been so happy as he was spending time with Rachel, talking to the sweetest, most wonderful girl in the world.
Akiva intended to spend the forthcoming Shabbat in the home of the old man Shimon and his wife.
In Shimons house the jangling sound of crockery could be heard as Shimons wife Dvora cleared the table after the Shabbat meal. Concerned by his guests silence, Shimon asked, Why are you so quiet today Akiva, has something happened?
Akiva said nothing.
My eyes do not deceive me. Tell me what has happened.
All right, I will tell you, only please listen to me, and dont be angry. Recently, Rachel and I have become very close. We see each other almost every day and we talk for ages. What do you think? Is there even a grain of hope that I could be the husband of Rachel, daughter of Kalba Savua?
You didnt take my advice after all. You didnt keep your distance said Shimon sadly. Akiva, as your elder, please, forget about her before it is too late. Its for the best, for you and for her. Find another woman who is worthy of you and have a family. Why torment yourself and the young girl? You may be mistaken and have misinterpreted your conversations as an expression of some special attention on her part.
Mr. Shimon, I am certain that there is something more between us than simple conversation. Nothing like this has ever happened to me before. I cant forget about her, not for one moment. I look for her everywhere and in every sound I strain to hear her voice.
The moment Kalba Savua learns of your affections, he will drive you off the estate and you will again wander round Judea in search of a wage said Shimon, admonishing his ward.
So be it. I am not afraid of anything any more. I want to be with her. Let him drive me away. I cant live without her said Akiva decisively.
Its useless trying to talk about it thought Shimon giving a heavy sigh.
Mr. Shimon, Do you think I dont know that she is an impossible dream for someone like me and that we can never be together? Akiva continued.