That man was wasted and couldnt control himself. He passed out three times. And when he was passed out for the last time, Steve ended up cutting his throat. It was awful. You shouldve seen that scene. It was disgusting. But we were all there together. Plus he ended up suffering, so we all helped Steve to get rid of the body. Thats what families do. They help each other out. I thought that after that we would always be friendly with each other but no. Im not living in a fairytale, so I had to suffer new pain.
CHAPTER FOUR: AGNES
Better If I Ate Her In A Womb
The sentence above perfectly describes my relationship with my sister. Moreover, it goes both ways. I wouldve been over the moon if she had eaten me. And she wouldve been extremely excited if she hadnt been born alive. You probably guess that everyone has such a relationship among siblings. But how dare you say it before I even started digging in. So probably you are allowed to say it after reading this chapter.
She is 19, only 2 years younger than me. But it feels like she is 35 and has tried everything out here. Agnes started smoking at 11 years old, drinking at 12. She tried weed at 14 and went to harder drugs at 17. Honestly, she was almost dead because of them when I killed her. So, I feel like I was a blessing for her. She had her first boyfriend at 13, first kiss at 13, and first sex at 13. She got a boyfriend in March, and a kiss and sex were in April. Pretty lucky girl, isnt she? Or better to use the past tense wasnt she because she is dead. Stupid joke, I know. You know what? I just realized that this whole situation with my family actually kind of seems like Shameless. I havent watched Shameless but I heard a lot about this TV show, so I feel like it seems like this. All members of the family are messed up. Each of them is an embodiment of some kind of sin. But they didnt kill one another which is good.