M-yes!
In the evening we decided to celebrate the imminent replenishment of the family at my mothers flat. Junga, as usual, began to throw herself at the fragile Jeanne. My mother, in spite of my protests, closed Junga in the room to let us have a quiet dinner in the kitchen.
After the meal, my mother and I retired to the balcony to discuss the upcoming changes. Suddenly there was a roar and screams. The door to Jungas room was blown off its hinges. Running into the kitchen, we saw Jeanne. Instead of washing the dishes, she was laying unconscious with a bloody knife in her hand! Roaring menacingly, Junga sprawled on her belly
We called the doctor and the vet. I was depressed! I howled! Yes, I howled at the Moon, not embarrassed by either veterinarians or doctors. Junga could no longer have puppies, and my wife could no longer have kids. God! It seemed I couldnt survive that!
We were walking by the very lake, with an uninhabited island in the middle. It was already too late, and not a soul around. A terrible picture came back to life and froze on the inner screen: my beloved Junga and the knife in Jeannes hand I dont remember how that very knife ended up in my hands
I just loved her too much!
December 13, 19964. Frozen
Hey! Yuri whispered, glancing sadly at her beautiful cold face. Today I came late, because I took the child to the cottage I am sorry, Inna!
She was silent.
Well, forgive me!
Inna said nothing.
So, all summer long Yuri came to her every evening to talk about his current life, and he brought her ice cream. Yes, I will always remember, she loved ice cream, and she froze some berries for the winter to defrost them then and eat with ice cream in the winter.
God told us to forgive everyone. Youve always believed in God, havent you, Inna? Forgive me!
She was silent.
***
Autumn came, and it rained heavily. That evening, Yuri bought her a bouquet of small chrysanthemums.
I have never given you flowers before. Im sorry Do you want me to bring them to you every day?.. And ice cream as well! Whatever you loved!
Inna was silent. Yes, she was mercilessly cold!
Yuri often remembered that everyone envied him for having such a wife beautiful, young, cheerful, sociable
How long can you be offended, Inna? Yes, I was wrong! Although Ive been holding back for so long! Just think, only once I was jealous of our child! Yes, because you spent too much time on him and paid no attention to me! I was very hurt, really! Well, Im sorry!
How long can you be offended, Inna? Yes, I was wrong! Although Ive been holding back for so long! Just think, only once I was jealous of our child! Yes, because you spent too much time on him and paid no attention to me! I was very hurt, really! Well, Im sorry!
Yuri looked at Inna with such a plaintive look, but she remained silent. And he could hardly restrain himself, since men dont cry.
***
In winter, almost every evening, in addition to ice cream, Yuri brought her also tangerines. Inna must have been fond of them as well, but she continued to be silent. She was so cold of course
***
And then spring came. When everything frozen begins to melt, and it seemed to Yuri that Inna was about to melt, too! He came to her with hope, but she was still cold.
Have pity on me! Yuri shouted. Hear me! I cant go on like this! I cant live without you! I feel like Im going crazy! Ill take you away from here and make you happy! Just come back to me please! Well, forgive me!!!
At that moment, I couldnt stand it anymore. You never know what one would do in such a state! I stepped away from the video camera and, fastening my bulletproof vest on the go, went to the client.
Yuri turned around as I opened the door and greeted me with a nod.
Have a nice evening you too! I said. So, have you made your mind? Are we going to renew the contract?
Yuri was still in a state of trance, fiddling with the edge of his jacket with nervous fingers.
Have you brought me the money for your ice cream? I added a passphrase to speed up the process.
Yuri involuntarily shuddered and even somehow cringed, but then he immediately grabbed and opened the briefcase, filled with bundles of foreign banknotes.
Yes, yes of course yes here you are
And have you really thought that the maintenance of my underground business Cold Storage at Boris garage is cheap? However, the rich have their own quirks, especially if their roof has gone, I mean, their madness, and, of course, the money is not lying on the road!
Im very tired, Yuri whispered and sobbed, well, forgive me, Inna, forgive me! I love you! Please open your eyes! Look at me! Give me your hand! Get up! Lets go home! Come on Lets go!
In the ensuing deathly silence, Yuri cast a desperate glance at Inna to see once more her thin cold hands, which had once gently caressed him; her pale, dear to the point of pain and yet already someone elses face; her petrified lips, which he so lacked. He couldnt see only her eyes and the scars beneath her dress, left by his numerous stabbings made in search of a heart
June 26, 1998