Natalie: ah, thanks! I have forgotten. Its a bit unpleasant! I want to ask you to keep yourselves and to try being more like a friend. I have to be honest. Adnan is not past for me. He also wants to see me, the only BIG problem I am not a Muslim. So dońt be in hurry, I am in difficult situation now. Dońt make it even more difficult for you and for me
Amir: well, i can wait, i dont have any problem with your religion
Natalie: yes, wait, its better, we have to come to some point with Adnan. And I dońt want to keep you just for «any case». I really like you, but I know him for nine months now so it is not my fault he became important for me but we are always in troubles and I dońt like it
Amir: so finalize and i will take care of you more than him because maybe he is playing game with you and i am very serious about you
Natalie: no, he is not playing, but he is such a man not easy for me and not easy for himself but he is very interesting as a person, as a character, really. If even I will stop my relations with him as it was before, I dońt like to stop it completely, I like to save the connection if possible; well, it is enough, it is all I wanted to say
Amir: ok no problem. So hows your day?
Natalie: fine! I was too long with Nelly in hospital today
Amir: i am impressed that you are doing noble things in your life
Natalie: we all have to be old, I just remember about that and I like to help old ppl if I can
Amir: great
Natalie: then after dinner I walked, was in cafe too, I like one place here in the center, I was there before once. Köln is really very beautiful and I feel like I have been living here for ages!
Amir: thats nice, soon so i hope i will see it with you;)
Natalie: then I have spoken today with my friend from Kiev
Amir: thats cool, you talked about what?
Natalie: she is an old friend, from my youth; we worked together on film studio, so we have what to talk about! she is film director and has the problem cańt have children it is a big drama for a woman!
Amir: is she married? does she have any physical problem?
Natalie: yes, she has a husband, he is musician yes, she has some problem with her health
Amir: what kind of problem?
Natalie: why? I am not a doctor! I dońt know and never asked. I only know she still wants to have a baby, but cańt
Amir: well, one of my friends is a doctor so maybe i could help her, thats why i was asking
Natalie: no, she lives in the Ukraine; she also has many doctors around! :) thanks!
Amir: hmmmm ok MAY GOD blesses her with a baby, i can only pray for her
Natalie: pray for me too;) :)
Amir: its great to find old fellows, well i want to make baby with you so lets try hahahahahahaha;)
Natalie: again! I told you dońt be in hurry! you even have never seen me and I also have never seen you. So how I can say if I want to have YOUR baby?! I am serious!
Amir: well, i am waiting for your decision as you ask me to come i will be with you and we can know each other, we have seen each other couple of times and trying to know each other; other side you told me that you like me as a human so it means i am not a bad human in your eyes
Natalie: well, it is not enough to be close if we meet then we will see
Amir: yes, so what you say about meeting? when can i come?
Natalie: Amir! I told you already! in January! if you are able of course
Amir: ok, good let me apply for leaves i wana see you, start video call
[15.10.201* 20:10:01] *** Call to Amir, duration 00:19. ***
Amir: i love your eyes
Natalie: thanks
Amir: ok, if i arrange a resident visa for you, will you come to DUBAI? we will stay together and life is amazing here, everything is available, luxury
Natalie: I dońt need luxury I just need good relations. All is possible but you again run too fast!
Amir: i didnt say anything, i am just asking, think about it and decide. Simple.
Natalie: but how about religion? dońt you mind I am Christian and will stay Christian?
Amir: i dont mind it, i respect all religions
Natalie: are you a Muslim? well, I want my baby to be baptized, how about it?
Amir: i didnt understand
Natalie: I want him to be a Christian at least be baptized as a Christian when it will be born and then when he is in age he can choose religion himself
Amir: no objection at all because whatever he is, he will be or she will be our baby
Natalie: well, look I will save these words! dońt change them afterwards! :)
Amir: i will not, i promise you
Natalie: I even have a name for him it may be strange for you I will explain later, if we meet
Amir: well i am arranging a visa for you so you will be here in one month, its amazing place, great entertainment, tourist place, a lot of things to watch and enjoy, we will decide if we can be a good couple simply i need your passport scanned copy and i will start process and if there will be any other docs needed i will ask you to send me so when you can send me your passport scanned copy?
Natalie: you are too fast, Amir! well, i will ask Mary to help me because at home I have this possibility and here I have nothing, but she is very kind to me so I will ask and then tell you. Where I have to send it? on which email?
Amir: a***@*** ok just send me and you will be here in one month with me and that will be the happiest day of my life, we will decide if its possible i will marry you after deciding our future just give me 30 minutes, i will be back and will talk to you in details
Natalie: dońt be in hurry too much! it will be difficult for you if it doesnt happen. So be careful!
Amir: well i dont have any problem honey; its totally possible for me
Natalie: you dońt understand we dońt know the future: what is possible and what is not. Just dońt dream a lot. I told you I dońt want you to suffer afterwards
Amir: ok just send me passport, let me see, i will start process and wait for me
Natalie: :)
Amir: thanks love
Он вернулся немного позже, чем обещал, и они опять проговорили весь вечер до тех пор, пока обоим пора было спать.
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ПРОГУЛКИ
Странным образом, перебравшись в Кёльн, Натали почувствовала себя помолодевшей и исполненной сил. Она снова полюбила долгие пешие прогулки
Нередко целью прогулок выбирался великолепный Домский собор. Когда она вошла туда впервые, то ощутила себя не очень уютно: после небольших душевных православных храмов, Кёльнский собор подавлял своим величием, надмирностью. В нём почти осязаемо ощущалась вечность, огромная, холодная и равнодушная к человеку. Но позже, когда Натали поближе познакомилась с собором, и его размеры уже не подавляли её, она полюбила приходить сюда молиться, выбирала понравившийся уголок, ставила свечи, садилась и смотрела, как они светятся и сгорают. В эти мгновенья на душу опускался покой, ей становилось хорошо, она чувствовала себя под защитой.