Keir Watsons badge had gotten her through the red tape of checking in, but without an insurance card or a drivers license, the staff couldnt check her medical records. Dr. McBride had refused to give her anything for the pain or even antibiotics until hed received a fax to back up her shaky assertion that she didnt think she was allergic to any medications. She was worn out. There wasnt any part of her that didnt hurt. And the wound to her memory wasnt something that Dr. McBride and his nurse could treat.
Were those tears chafing her eyelids? She wasnt a crier, was she? Shed hate that if she was. Exhaustion and frustration were finally winning the battle against the sheer will to keep it all together.
Need something to hold on to?
Kennas eyes popped open when she felt a warm hand sliding over hers.
Keir Watsons grasp was as sure as the hug of his arms around her body had been when he carried her to his car. It was just as warm and reassuring, too, reminding her she wasnt alone and that someone strong and capable truly did have her backeven if it was only for tonight.
Kenna nodded her thanks and squeezed her fingers around the detectives solid grip. Thank you. Again.
Dont worry, Counselor. Im keeping tabs on what you owe me.
Kenna hoped that his teasing tone was genuine, because she felt like smiling. Only, the shots had deadened the left side of her face and she couldnt tell if shed smiled or not. The stiffness from the swelling and the raw ache of the open wounds finally disappeared with a numbing relief.
She squeezed her eyes shut and held on while the doctor worked on the long, deep cuts. Hed already pulled her hair off her forehead and cheek and anchored it off her face with one of those caps shed seen doctors wear into surgery. Although she couldnt actually see what the doctor was doing, she felt the warmth of the sterile solution he squirted over her cuts and tasted miniscule grit and the coppery tang of her own blood at the corner of her lips before someone wiped it away. She felt the tugs on her skin and heard a couple of concerned sighs and quick orders to the nurse while he glued and sutured and applied tiny butterfly bandages to the wounds.
I think were finally done. The doctor rolled his stool away from the table and stood.
The left side of Kennas face was still numb, her eyelid droopy from the anesthetic, when she finally let go of Keirs hand. He and the nurse helped her sit up and swing her legs over the edge of the table while Dr. McBride rattled off wound-care instructions and washed his hands. He shone a light into her eyes one more time, checking her pupil reaction, before smiling and giving her permission to leave on the proviso that she contact her personal physician Monday morning.
The nurse rolled aside the stainless steel tray piled with bloodied gauze and various tubes of antibiotics and skin glue. After depositing the sharps on the tray in the disposal bin, the nurse handed her several sheets of printed instructions and a package of sterile gauze pads and tape. Meanwhile the doctor reminded her of the symptoms to watch out for that might indicate the injury to her brain was getting worse.
Thank you, Dr. McBride. Kenna spoke slowly to articulate around the numbness beside her mouth. I appreciate everything youve done for me.
Youre lucky you cant remember what happened to you, Ms. Parker. He reached out and shook her hand, holding on for a few compassionate seconds. If the amnesia turns out to be permanent, perhaps thats a good thing. I cant imagine how frightening an attack like that would be. You take care.
After Dr. McBride and the nurse had gone, Kenna tilted her gaze to the detective still standing beside the examination table. So why dont I feel lucky?
Because you dont know who did this to you. And youre afraid he or she might come back to finish the job.
Exactly. I think I liked you better when you held my hand and didnt say anything.
Keir slid his hands into the pockets of his charcoal slacks and grinned. And here I thought you didnt like me at all, Counselor.
Kenna couldnt understand why she wouldnt have found this man charming. True, he seemed to be a few years younger than she was, but not enough to make any awkward difference. She had a feeling his sarcastic sense of humor was very much like her own, and she owed him more than she could repay for rescuing her and standing by her through this whole, tortuous ordeal. She tried to match his smile. Tell me again why were supposed to be enemies? I hurt you, didnt I? Hurt someone you care about. Oh, God, I didnt sue you, did I?
No. You didnt sue me. He reached over to pluck the surgical cap off her head and let her hair fall around her face. According to the doctor, Id better not fill in the blanks. He said that in order for your memory to recover you need to figure out the missing details in your brain for yourself.
That wasnt all Dr. McBride had cautioned her about. If it comes back at all.
You want to try again?
Try what?
The detective pulled out his phone to show her a picture of a man wearing a black sweatshirt hoodie and blue jeans. Do you recognize this man?
Kenna studied the image for a few seconds. Did he do this to me?
I cant say.
Because you dont know? Or because you want me to tell you who he is.
Keirs firm mouth eased into a grin. Can you identify this guy?
She looked again. Even if she could remember the attack, there was little to identify in the picture. The man stood in the shadows behind a parked car, beneath a harsh circle of light from a street lamp creating shadows that rendered his face a black void that reminded her of the Grim Reaper.
No. I dont know him. Not even the clothes looked familiar. She tucked the loose hair behind her ears. What if I never remember what happened to me? How good a detective are you? Can KCPD solve a crime like that? I may not remember clients and faces, but I remember my books and law school and what it takes to make a good case. I cant imagine getting a conviction if the victim herself isnt a reliable witness. Any decent defense attorney would fry me in court.
Keirs eyes darkened to an unreadable midnight blue, and the grin disappeared. Shed struck a nerve there. Something to do with shredding his case again, she imagined. A fist squeezed around Kennas heart. She didnt want whatever had happened between them in the past to ruin this...what? Friendship? Attraction? Maybe she was the only one imagining a connection between them. What if he was just a good cop following through on an investigation and she could have been any citizen hed taken an oath to protect? Maybe she was more addled in the head than she knew and she couldnt tell the difference between being kind and caring.
Kenna dropped her feet to the floor and stood, reaching for Keir when he turned away. What did I just say? I reminded you of something. What did I do to you?
His cell phone vibrated, creating an audible buzz in the silence of the room while she waited for him to answer.
Keir?
But an explanation wasnt coming. Keir read the summons on the screen as it buzzed again. The doc said I couldnt use my phone in here, but I need to take this.
An instinctive response to ask a different questionto get him to open up about something else before she steered the conversation back to what she really wanted to knowkicked in. Whos calling you before dawn?