Bastard. It was impossible to tell whether the word was meant in the figurative or literal sense. She felt an unwilling flicker of sympathy for Doucet, one that was totally unnecessary. If he experienced the same sense of unease that she did at being the recipient of such attention, it certainly didnt show. The only emotions reflected on his face were ones he allowed to appear there.
And all that showed right now was his continued interest in her.
It took more fortitude than it should have to collect his order from the kitchen, approach his table with it. But when she entered the patio area Doucet was no longer alone. Douglas Fairmont had left his party to address him, and she felt a ridiculous wave of relief that his presence would provide a buffer between them.
Id really like to lay it all out for you. At a gesture from Nick, Douglas looked around, saw Sara. He shifted his girth to allow her room to set the plates in front of the man, but it was clear he had no intention of leaving. If I could have just a half hour of your time, I promise youll see for yourself the possibilities for future growth.
She quickly unloaded the tray, giving far more concentration to the act than was warranted. As she set down the linen-wrapped silverware, Doucet reached for it. Their hands touched and she snatched hers back with a suddenness that had his attention shifting from Fairmont to her.
I might be interested. Although still addressing the other man, his dark gaze was fixed on Sara. You can stop by and give me the details this evening, say, at seven? Nicks eyes traced her features as Fairmont stuttered out an agreement. On the condition, of course, that you bring Amber with you.
No way, Douglas. Sara gripped her purse and hurried more quickly down the sidewalk, unmindful of the heat. She worked a split shift that day, with a couple hours off before she was needed for the lunch crowd. Shed planned to spend that time dropping by the library, maybe picking up a few groceries. But the man glued to her side wouldnt be dissuaded.
Be reasonable. And slow down, for Gods sake. He pulled out an embroidered handkerchief and wiped his broad forehead, which was already gleaming. All Im asking for is an hour of your time.
How many ways can I say it? She never broke stride. Im not going.
Theres a hundred dollars in it for you.
That stopped her. The look she fixed on him was fierce enough to have him backing away a step, raising his hands in mute surrender. I meant no disrespect, Amber, honest.
Forcing a lid on her roiling emotions, Sara took a deep breath, reached for calm. I dont mind doing you a favor, Douglas, but Nick Doucet She shook her head. I dont want to have anything to do with him.
But you wont. Not really. Seizing the opportunity to make his case again, Douglas went on eagerly. My appointment is for seven. Well arrive, maybe have a drink, then he and I will discuss some business. Afterward, Ill take you home. You wont even have to talk to him if you dont want to.
Sara started walking again. The mans wheedling tone couldnt begin to quiet the alarm shrilling in her mind. Doucet was trouble. Maybe not the kind of trouble shed originally imagined. At least she no longer feared hed been sent to kill her. But he presented a different kind of danger. She was much too aware of the man for it to be otherwise. You can just show up without me. He heard me say I wasnt coming. He wont blame you.
I cant take that chance. Fairmount reached out to take her arm, and she pulled away in an involuntary response that no amount of acting could effectively disguise.
He balled up the handkerchief in his hand, his fingers clenching and unclenching around it. This is important to me. I have a deal in mind that could make my careerall I need to do is line up the financing. Ive been to everyone else in town, but Nick Doucet might be the only one with the vision to take a risk on my venture. I know you dont owe me a thing, but he may be my last chance. Cmon, Amber, whaddya say?
People strolled past them on the sidewalk, parting for the drama being carried out between the pair. Seeing the cautious hope mirrored on Fairmonts face, Sara felt suddenly ancient. She could have told him that hope was as dangerous an emotion as need or trust. Far better to have no expectations at all than to risk having them shattered.
She took a deep breath and steeled herself to do just that. Im sorry, Douglas. Id like to help you. If it were anybody elsebut theres no way Im going to have anything to do with Nick Doucet. Not even for you.
An hour later she was ensconced in a comfortable chair near the entrance of the New Orleans main library, reading the newest selection from a popular horror writer. The cool, quiet environment was a welcome balm after the outdoor heat, and from the nerves that quivered to life whenever Nick Doucet got too close.
Sara turned a page, squelching a twinge of conscience as she remembered the crestfallen look on Douglass face when hed realized that no amount of persuasion was going to convince her to change her mind. But shed learned long ago the folly of allowing emotion to dictate her actions. Her instincts were keen, honed by years on the streets, and those instincts came screaming to life every time Doucet was in the vicinity. She knew better than to ignore them.
A woman hurried by, grasping a young child by the hand. She spared Sara only a cursory glance, a fact that relieved a measure of the tension that had been building in her for the last several days. She knew what the woman saw when she looked at hera medium tall, slender woman with badly cut hair, twisting a cheap locket around her index finger as she read the latest offering from a popular horror author. The picture was exactly the one Sara meant to present, accentuated by the gaudy, obviously cheap costume jewelry. The image fit Amber Jennings, and would be easily shed when she decided to move on to another city. Another state. She never kept any of her identities more than a few months.
The next half hour meandered by, the pace a welcome contrast to her usually hectic work schedule. When voices interrupted her concentration, she looked up, frowned slightly. A group of women in filmy, flowery dresses was trooping out of an inner room toward the exit, their goodbyes disturbing the relative quiet of her sanctuary. They strolled out the door, trailing expensive perfume in their wake.
Returning to her book, Sara was once again lost in the authors imaginary world when a slight movement to her left disturbed her again. This time it was a solitary female, upwards of eighty, shed guess, with the patrician bone structure that reflected beauty regardless of age, and pale, almost translucent skin.
But it wasnt the older womans beauty that held Saras attention; it was the way she was clutching the edge of a table, swaying slightly on her feet.
Hesitantly, Sara asked, Are you all right?
Quite all right, thank you. The crisp words were delivered with just an air of haughtiness, and usually would have been enough to deter Sara from inquiring further. She guarded her own privacy too zealously to be at ease poking into others. But for some reason memories picked that moment to swarm to the surface. Sean had had a grandmother hed loved dearly. Shed been, hed often claimed, the only member of his family whod given a damn about him. Hundreds of times over the years Sara had reached for a phone, longing to dial that rest home in Illinois just to hear someone else mention his name. Each time realization of the risk had overpowered the emotion. Sara still made sure the woman knew she hadnt been forgotten, but she did so anonymously. It was safer, far safer for all involved.