Rafe directed a wide smile over his left shoulder toward her voice. It singed Alexas insides, and she felt the heat all the way to her toes.
Lordy, a scowling Rafe Eaglefeather had been a sight to behold. But when he smiled, he was pure devastation. Alexa felt knocked off-kilter. Then, for no reason at all, fear moved in, welding her to the top rail. Memories of Bobby swirled. She had failed him, and herself as well. What if her infusions, herbs and needles were no more than the hocus pocus Bobbys parents had claimed? Alexa shivered in spite of the sun.
Compadre set his paws on the middle rail of the corral and nudged Alexas leg with his cold, wet nose, as if to say, look at me. You doctored me back to health.
Jumping down, she swept him into a hug. I promise to give your new buddy my best, boy.
The collie licked her face.
But not even Compadres vote of confidence could alleviate her concern.
CHAPTER THREE
IF ITS OKAY WITH YOU, Id like to spend some time again tomorrow working with the mare, Rafe said as he and Alexa walked into the house for lunch.
Fine with me. Like I said, Esperanza performed better to your commands.
Really? Are you just saying that to pump up my ego?
Alexa went over to the sink to wash her hands. Like your ego needs pumping. Youve got a healthy supply of machismo, Rafe.
Are you saying Im full of myself?
Best not to reply to that, Alexa thought. Is a cold ham-and-cheese sandwich okay with you? she asked instead.
Whatever. Food is food. You seem to be trying to change the subject. I thought you doctors always laid the truth on the line.
Alexa dried her hands and took down two plates from the cupboard. The truth was he looked damned sexy the way he casually propped one lean hip against her kitchen counter. He hadnt lost his military bearing, nor had he grown soft from lying around. His cheekbones and jaw were angular, but the small cleft in his chin kept his features from being too sharp.
Your attitude sucks and you have a mile-high chip on your shoulder. That was one truth Alexa wasnt reluctant to share.
Thats calling a spade a spade. Rafes lips thinned as he processed her blunt statement. Compadre woofed softly, gazing anxiously up at the man whod stiffened beside him.
Alexa quickly prepared their lunch and set the plates on the table. I put cut-up fruit on the side. Do you want a spoon or a fork for that?
Are you sure its normal fruit, or some herbal crap like clover and dandelion leaves?
Theyre not fruits, Alexa said, snatching a whistling teakettle off the hot stove, and thats the attitude Im talking about. If I was treating you for infertility, I would use red clover buds and marigold flowers. But I honestly dont know what cures sarcasm.
She could see that Rafe tried to keep a straight face, but he couldnt quite manage. His laughter seemed to roll up from his belly.
Great, Alexa shot back. Youve been hiding a sense of humor. Here. Sit down. These are apple slices and cantaloupe cubes from a melon I picked fresh this morning. Youll be happy to hear that todays tea is cinnamon, she added, pouring their mugs full of the spicy-scented brew.
Rafe took his seat as instructed and Alexa sensed how relaxed he felt.
She unfolded her napkin. If you feel up to it, I thought maybe after lunch we could go for a ride.
Where? Into town? I could buy some groceries.
Ignoring the dig at her food, Alexa said, I meant go for a horseback ride. Sorry, I should have been more clear.
Rafe swallowed a bite of sandwich. I need to be able to see to direct a horse. All levity had disappeared from his tone.
I wouldnt have suggested a ride if I didnt think you could do it, Rafe. There are two or three easy park trails we can pick up just down the road. Theyre wide enough to ride two abreast. Plus, my horses are docile. Alexa could tell he was interested, but still debated the issue with himself.
Docile, huh? He gave a little snort. Why bother saddling up, then? I might as well just sit in my room in the rocking chair?
Cute, she shot back. Getting out helps sharpen other senses. I wouldnt send you out alone, Rafe, but people who have lost their eyesight still do sportsthey ski, surf, play golf. Life changes with the loss of a limb or hearing or sight, but it doesnt have to end.
Mine should have. The bitterness was back in his voice again. Some of the guys in my unit who died that day had wives and kids. One had just got engaged.
Alexa didnt know what to say. He radiated guilt. She picked up her sandwich, but found she didnt have much of an appetite anymore.
I was the man in charge, he added gloomily.
Living here, safe and sound, you have no idea what its like in the thick of war. No idea what its like watching pals bleed to death because the enemy has you pinned down and theres not a damned thing you can do.
The apple slice Alexa had put in her mouth turned to sawdust. She knew exactly what it was like to lose a friend while she was in charge. Even now she could feel the shock of Bobbys hand going cold in hers. But she couldnt bring herself to share that with Rafe. One of them had to stay positive. Only God is infallible, she said, almost to herself.
Funny, my general said the same thing the day he stopped by my cot in the field hospital.
What did you decide about the horseback ride? Rising, Alexa collected their plates. The weathers near perfect, and my horses need exercising.
Rafe unclenched his hand. Its probably foolish, but youre right about the weather. I may as well take advantage of catching some rays. It wont be long until storms start rolling up from the gulf.
When they were ready to go, the dog headed toward the door with them. He stretched and yawned, then trotted up to nudge Rafe.
You cant go this time, Compadre, Alexa said, stooping to rub his head.
Why not? Rafe asked.
Park rules. Pets arent permitted on park trails, and if campers bring dogs, they have to stay in camp and be leashed at all times. Wild animals do roam the park.
They headed out the door to the barn, Alexas hand on his elbow to guide him.
Oh, that makes me feel better about riding blind, Rafe grumbled.
Scoffing, Alexa gave his arm a friendly punch. Not to worry, big guy. Ill save you from the raccoons, jackrabbits and skunks.
Thanks, he drawled. Im more concerned about the coyotes, javelina and black bear.
Hmm. Ive ridden the lower trails almost daily for five years and have never seen a bear or javelina. Youre more likely to come across a two-legged beast whos fleecing frightened illegals and sending them on their own through the park to hit the highway that leads to Alpine.
They could be more dangerous, Rafe said thoughtfully.
Theyre scum, Alexa burst out. And they go to great lengths to avoid a law-abiding citizen who has a cell phone.
Okay, youve sold me. Im counting on you and your phone to protect me.
She smiled at that, but of course he couldnt see. Do you want a mare to ride, or a gelding? she asked. I have two mares, Gigi and Willow. And a gelding, Loki.