They were a few steps away from the front pew, where his brother and sister-in-law sat gazing down adoringly at their infant son. The sight of their utter devotion and contentment made her insides tighten another notch.
I dont think thats how your brother and his wife see it.
Rafaels jaw tightened before he shrugged. Im prepared to accede that for some the Halleys Comet effect does happen. But well wait and see if its a mirage or the real thing, shall we?
Her breath caught at the wealth of cynicism in his tone. She couldnt respond because an usher was signalling the priest that it was time to start.
The ceremony was conducted in Spanish with English translations printed out on embossed gold-edged paper.
As the minutes ticked by, she noted Rafaels profile growing even tenser. Glancing down at the sheet, she realised the moment was approaching for him to take his godson for the anointing. Despite her caution to remain unmoved, her heart softened at his obvious discomfort.
Relax. Babies are more resilient than we give them credit for. Trust me, it takes a complete idiot to drop a baby.
She was unprepared for the icy blue eyes that sliced into her. Your flattery is touching but the last thing Im thinking of is dropping my nephew.
You dont need to hide it, Rafael. Your tension is so thick its suffocating.
His eyes grew colder. Remember when I said weddings bore me?
She nodded warily.
Christenings bore me even more. Besides, Ive never been good in churches. All that piety. He gave a mock shudder. My abuela used to smack my hand because I could never sit still.
Well, Im not your grandmother so youre spared the smacking. Besides, youre a grown man now so act like one and suck it up.
Too late, she remembered certain words were like a naked invitation to Rafael. She was completely stunned when he didnt make the obvious remark. Or maybe it was a testament to just how deeply the whole ceremony was affecting him.
I just want this to be over and done with so I can resume more interesting subjects. Without due warning, his gaze dropped to the cleavage of her simple, sleeveless orange knee-length chiffon dress. The bold, heated caress resonated through her body, leaving a trail of fire that singed in delicate places. Like how delicious you look in that dress. Or how youll look out of it.
Heat suffused her face. It was no use pointing out how inappropriate this conversation was. Rafael knew very well what he was doing. And the unrepentant gleam in his eyes told her so.
Rafa... Marco de Cervantess deep voice interrupted them.
Raven glanced up and her eyes collided with steel-grey ones which softened a touch when they lit on his brother.
Like most people whod worked the X1 Premier circuit, she knew all about the de Cervantes brothers. Gorgeous beyond words and successful in their individual rights, theyd made scores of female hearts flutter, both on and off of the racing circuit.
Marco had been the dynamic ex-racer team boss and race car designer. And Rafael, also insanely gifted behind the wheel, had at the age of twenty-eight founded and established himself as CEO of X1 Premier Management, the multi-billion euro conglomerate that nurtured, trained and looked after racing drivers. Between them theyd won more medals and championships than any other team in the history of the sport.
The last year had changed everything for them, though. Marco had sold the team and married Sasha Fleming, the racing driver whod won him his last Constructors Championship and stolen his heart in the process; and Rafael had spectacularly crashed his car, nearly lost his life and stalled his racing career.
The icy jet of guilt that shot through Raven every time she thought of his accident, and her part in it, threatened to overwhelm her. Her breath caught as she desperately tried to put the incident out of her head. This was neither the time nor the place.
But then, when had timing been her strong suit?
Over and over, shed proven that when it came to being in the wrong place at the wrong time, she took first prize every single time. At sixteen, it was what had earned her the unwanted attention that had scarred what remained of her already battered childhood.
As a grown woman of twenty-three, foolishly believing shed put the past behind her, shed been proved brutally wrong again when shed met Rafael de Cervantes.
Rafaels mouth very close to her ear ripped her from her painful thoughts. Right, Im up, I believe. Which means, so are you.
Her heart leapt into her throat. Excuse me?
I can barely stand up straight, pequeña. Its time to do your duty and support me just in case it all gets too much and I keel over.
But youre perfectly capable
Rafa... Marcos voice held a touch of impatience.
Rafaels brow cocked and he held out his arm. With no choice but to comply or risk causing a scene, Raven stood and helped him up. As before, his arm came around her in an all-encompassing hold. And again, she felt the bounds of professionalism slip as she struggled not to feel the effortless, decidedly erotic sensations Rafael commanded so very easily in her. Sensations shed tried her damnedest to stem and, failing that, ignore since the first moment shed clapped eyes on the legendary racing driver last year.
What had she said to himsuck it up? She took a breath and fought to take her own advice.
They made their way to the font and Raven managed to summon a smile in answer to Sashas open and friendly one. But all through the remainder of the ceremony, Raven was drenched with the feeling that maybe, just maybe, in her haste to assuage her guilt and make amends, shed made a mistake. Had she, by pushing Rafael to take her on as his personal physiotherapist, jumped from the frying fan into the proverbial fire?
* * *
Rafael repeated the words that bound the small person sleeping peacefully in the elegant but frilly Moses basket to him. He firmed lips that wanted to curl in self-derision.
Who was he to become godfather to another human being?
Everything he touched turned to dust eventually. Sooner or later he ruined everything good in his life. Hed tried to tell his brother over and over since hed dropped the bombshell on him a month ago. Hell, as late as this morning hed tried to get Marco to see sense and change his mind about making him godfather.
But Marco, snug in his newfound love-cocoon, had blithely ignored his request to appoint someone else his sons godfather. Apparently, reality hath no blind spots like a man in love.
Was that a saying? If not, it needed to be.
He was no ones hero. He was the last person any father should entrust with his child.
He gazed down into his nephews sweet, innocent face. How long before Jack de Cervantes recognised him for what he was? An empty shell. A heartless bastard whod only succeeded at two thingsdriving fast cars and seducing fast women.
He shifted on his feet. Pain ricocheted through his hip and pelvis. Ignoring it, he gave a mental shrug, limped forward and took the ladle the priest passed him. Scooping water out of the large bowl, he poised it over his nephews head.
At the priests nod, he tipped the ladle.
The scream of protest sent a tiny wave of satisfaction through him. Hopefully his innocent nephew would take a look at him and run screaming every time he saw him. Because Rafael knew that if he had anything at all to do with his brothers child, the poor boys life too would be ruined.