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A sense of self-importance (essentially a hidden self-pity) is a feeling that accompanies almost all our thoughts and actions, often unconscious. The mechanism of its occurrence is a conscious or uncon-scious ignoring of internal uncalm (tension, excitement in the lower abdomen, where is the will; general excitement, anxiety, concern) in any action. Outwardly, it manifests in excessive involvement in what is happening (the expression of self in the surrounding, self ego) or excessive detachment from what is happening, self-acceptance, if pity is not hidden. It also manifests in many ways in the anxiety for what is happening inside, for self in the present and future (I worry about myself, what they will think about me, how I should behave, I can be scolded, beaten; I must intervene in what is happening it will be better for me or for someone, so right or I do not need to intervene, nothing depends from me). It manifests, for example, even in such trifles, when you deliberately try not to notice the person, not to show interest first because of the reluctance to seem simple, easily accessible; try to be invisible, detached because of the reluctance to be in interaction due to fear or bias, while the situation has to interact; react irritated, dissatisfied, speak in a commanding tone without good reason or because people behave stupidly or unintentionally distract you from work, reflection. The senseof self-importance expresses in the nurturing of self ego, self-love, self-fixation and irresponsibility towards to self and to the world: I am what I am, do and say what I want, and I do not care about the consequences. It is often based on an excessive desire for independence. In ordinary life, it begins with the desire to separate from parents.
If a person struggles with a sense of self-importance and internaldialogue to accumulate free energy to expand his perception, then he can be considered as a warrior. The spirit guides man in the way of a warrior to move in the right direction. The spirit gives a person signs that help a person to avoid unpleasant and tense situations that exacerbate the senseof self-importance and internal dialogue. With the accumulation of freeenergy, the assemblage point of a person becomes more mobile, and perception (perception is closely related to the concept of attention) becomes more free and easy. The attention of a person begins to stay here and now to a greater extent, becomes stronger, more concentrated and makes it possible to dive deeply into what is happening. This makes a persons life more intense and bright, fills his body with new feelings and sensations, and his actions become more complex and cease to be blindly subordinated only to the achievement of the needs of his ego. Ultimately, the spirit seeks to free the perception of a person from the shackles of internal dialogue, to make a person awared, awakened and to reveal the potential of his energy abilities, which is associated with the energy body of a person (double, dream body), awareness of which (remembering the another, true I) and occurs when the assemblage point is in the position of silent knowledge.
CHAPTER 2. POSITIONS OF THE EGO
A certain position of the assemblage point corresponds to the human ego. Seers call this position a place of concern, anxiety. In this positionof the assemblage point attention (attention is closely connected with the concept of perception, and with the concept of awareness, so everywhere in the text, these concepts to a certain extent can be interchangeable) of a person, as a rule, is directed to himself, to his own problems and concerns; a persons actions are aimed at achieving any personal benefit, and his state is characterized by internal unrest, although for an ordinary external observer and internally for the person himself it can be absolutely imperceptible. This position of the assemblage point is in close proximity to the place of the mind, in which the human attention is completely immersed in thoughts.
In the books of Castaneda, don Juan calls the ego of man a sense of self-importance, which, in fact, is a hidden self-pity. Don Juan says that parting with a sense of self-importance makes a person invulnerable and that the best way to get rid of him is to use a petty tyrant. In the role of the petty tyrant serves some person having direct or indirect influence on the warrior (the warrior is the man who puts his lifes purpose to the attainment of true knowledge, the development of own spirit, self-development, and the main task awareness of own spirit, the double, the another I, the energy body, the astral body). I single out the word warrior because the energy of such a person stands out quite thoroughly among other people, and even if he has not yet broken the mirror of self-reflection, these features of energy can be felt literally. The warriors attitude to himself and the world around him has changed greatly, he is not involved in the social game and is directed in almost every action to pull out the second attention (the attention of the anotherI, the double, the energy body), first of all, his ability to be detached from himself and not affected by what is happening around. The petty tyrant can be a person of the same social status as a warrior, but his presence has a strong influence on the internal state of the warrior, this man is hurt and cling the warrior by words, looks, behavior, drives him crazy, generally speaking, takes the warrior out of balance. However, in my experience, the other side of sense of self-importance, namely self-pity, is not hidden under the mask of self-importance and dominates in life of many people, like the other side of the human ego. For such people, who are, in fact, introverts and themselves prone to melancholy and depression, petty tyrants have a rather negative effect. For such people need not a pressing external factor, but rather a stimulating one, but, of course, provided that these people will use this factor to maintain and develop their own spirit, but not personal self-esteem. In this case, should speak about the sense of self-worthlessness (self-pity) as the second side of the human ego.