Mademoiselle is unhappy! Is there no assistance I can render?
She started, raising her pale, pensive face to mine in surprise. Then in sorrow she shook her head.
Msieur is very kind, she answered, in a voice that betrayed a poignant grief. Words of sympathy may lighten ones burden of sorrow, but nothing can heal a broken heart.
It mainly depends on how the fracture was caused, I answered, smiling, and, grasping her tiny hand, assisted her to rise.
She brushed the dust from her dress, dashed away her tears, and, turning to me, said
I have heard that gaiety is efficacious sometimes.
Until I know the cause, I cannot prescribe for the effect, I replied, as I held open the door and she passed out into the sunlight.
Ah, msieur, she sighed bitterly, her beautiful eyes still full of tears, woe is my heritage! The brightness of each dawn jars upon me, showing me how gloomy life is, and how utterly hopeless and lonely is the sea of despair upon which I am drifting. I welcome each night with joy, because because it brings me one day nearer nearer to death.
You are young and fair; you have joy and life around you. Surely you are joking?
No, msieur. Ah, you do not know! she sighed. If you were aware of my secret, you would, I assure you, not be surprised that, even though surrounded by friends, I desire to die.
But it is so extraordinary! I said, walking beside her and chatting as if we were old acquaintances. Have you never tried to unburden yourself by confiding your secret to some friend?
Dieu! No. I I dare not.
Dare not? I echoed. Of what are you afraid?
Afraid? she repeated in a strained voice, speaking like one in a dream, with her eyes fixed straight before her. Yes, I I am a wretched, miserable coward, because I fear the punishment.
Is your crime of such a flagitious character, then?
My crime? she cried, turning suddenly upon me with flashing eyes. What what do you know of my crime? What do you insinuate?
Nothing, mademoiselle, I answered, as politely as I could, though amazed at her sudden change of manner. Your own strange words must be my excuse for inquisitiveness.
Then let us change the subject. To you my private affairs can be of no concern whatever.
I was not prepared for this stinging rebuff. We passed the front of the Casino, strolling through the shady gardens facing the Concha, and when we had rested upon a convenient seat, pleasantly sheltered from the sun, she grew communicative again. While I had been telling her of my journey over the Pyrenees to Madrid, her grief had been succeeded by gaiety, and when I related some amusing contretemps that had befallen me at a wayside posada in the Sierra de Guara, she laughed lightly. At length at my request, she drew out a silver case, and, in exchange for my card, gave me one bearing the name Doroteita dAvendaño.
Then, with an ingenuousness that enhanced her personal charms, she told me of herself, that she was the only daughter of the Count Miguel dAvendaño, who had represented Castillejo in the Senate, but who had died a year ago. The widowed Countess who had been her companion on the previous night had let their mansion in the Calle Ancha de San Bernardo at Madrid to a wealthy foreigner, and since that time her mother and herself had been travelling, spending the winter at Cannes, the spring at Seville, and coming to San Sebastian for a few weeks previous to going north to Paris. She pointed out their villa from where we sat, a great white house with a terrace in front, standing out against a background of foliage on the side of the hill overlooking the bay. The Count, her father, had, I knew, been one of the most celebrated of Spanish statesmen. Referring to many well-known personages at Court as her friends, her observations regarding their little idiosyncrasies were full of dry humour. With a versatility of narrative she told me many little anecdotes of the Queen-Regent and the infant monarch, the knowledge of which betrayed an intimacy with the domestic arrangements of the palace, and for fully an hour gossiped on pleasantly.
And amid this life of gaiety and happiness I find you kneeling in yonder church, abandoned to melancholy! I observed at length, half reproachfully.
The light died out of her face.
True, she sighed. Sometimes for an hour or so I manage to forget, but sooner or later the sorrow that overshadows my life recurs to me in all its hideous reality, and when I am alone it overwhelms me. To the world I am compelled to appear chic, happy, and thoughtless. Few, indeed, who know me are aware that my feigned laughter is but a bitter wail of lamentation, that beneath my smile lies a broken heart.
And your lover? Was he faithless? What of him?
What of him! she gasped hoarsely, rising from the seat with her hands clenched. I I know nothing of him, she added, with a strange look in her eyes.
She laughed a hollow laugh, and as she drew on her long suède gloves, the bells of San Vicente announced the noon.
I have been out too long already, she added, hurriedly rising. We must part.
May I not accompany you towards your home? I asked.
No, msieur, she answered firmly, holding out her hand.
And when shall we resume our chat? I asked.
She hesitated, gazing away to the misty cliffs across the bay. I half feared she would refuse to meet me again.
If you are not bored by my wretchedness and bad temper, she said at last, with a sad smile, I will be here to-morrow morning, at eleven.
I shall not fail to keep the appointment, I said, delighted. Meanwhile try and forget your secret; try and be equally happy with those around you, and remember that at least you have one sympathiser, even though he is almost a stranger.
Tears welled in her beautiful eyes as I clasped her hand.
Thank you, she said in a low voice, trembling with emotion. I I appreciate your sympathy. Au revoir, msieur, sans adieu.
For an instant our eyes met, then, turning towards the Concha, she walked away, and was, a few seconds later, hidden by a bend in the path.
I strolled back to the Ezcurra, utterly mystified. Womens ways are as many and as devious as lucks lines on ones hand, but the Señorita Doroteita was an enigma. I was not one of those minor lovers whose petty passions could be caged in a triolet, for her marvellous beauty and exquisite grace now held me in fascination.
No solution of the political crisis presented itself. In those agitated and troublous times under which Spain was labouring, I was compelled to make a daily journey to Bayonne, a distance of thirty-four miles, in order to dispatch my telegram to London. The Carlists were active; the various political parties were holding conferences incessantly; in military circles dissatisfaction was being openly expressed, and there were sinister rumours of a projected coup détat. With Señor Canovas del Castillo, Señor Romero y Robledo, and Señor Navarro Reverter I had had short interviews, the substance of which had been transmitted to London; and spending the brilliant sunny mornings in strolling with my enchanting señorita, the afternoons in writing, and the evenings in travelling to and fro across the frontier, the days glided by, and I took no count of them. In the course of those charming morning rambles we had visited Los Pasajes and Monte Iguëldo, we had strolled along the Paseo de Ategorrita, and ascended Monte Orgullo to enjoy the view of the Pyrenees, and each hour I spent with her increased my admiration. She had discarded the mantilla, and was always dressed in gowns and hats that were unmistakably from the Rue de la Paix. Patrician refinement was stamped upon every line of her handsome countenance, and her conversation was always bright, witty, and delightful. One day, while we were walking along the Paseo de Ategorrita, beside the sea, outside the town, I explained to her how, as a newspaper correspondent, I was exceedingly anxious to obtain reliable information regarding the situation, and the earliest intimation as to the formation of the new Cabinet.