They were, indeed, much more spacious that her cramped quarters on the Arcadia , and a decided contrast from the seedy lodging room she had shared with Kell. Though, what she and Kell had done in that lodging room hadnt been seedy at all. It had beenbreathtaking.
Needing to be alone with her thoughts and memories, she dismissed the ensign. The grime of Ryge needed to come off. She remembered her purification ritual after her first menses. At dawn, she had been bathed by priestesses, symbolically marking the transformation from childhood to adulthood, one life ended, another begun.
After stripping, she stepped beneath the water. The drain carried away the final relics of her life as a scavenger. Who was she now? There were millions of paths to takecargo pilot, merchant, or,
hell, mercenary. She now possessed what she had been denied on Argentichoice.
She finished and wrapped a towel around herself, then staggered toward the bed as weariness overwhelmed her. Mara collapsed onto the bed. She would just rest her eyes a moment before getting dressed and going in search of Kell. Against her will, she fell asleep in seconds. And found herself adrift in dreams.
She woke later to a fleeting sensation of panic. An unfamiliar room, unfamiliar bed. Voices outside in the corridor discussed a training session, griping to each other about a tough warrant officer.
Im at 8th Wing base. Kells home.
And hers, if she wanted it. Considering the praise shed been given from the 8th officers, his offer might very well be genuine. The question was, what did she want?
Him. She wanted him. A palpable ache in the center of her chest. Lying on her back, staring at the ceiling, Mara pressed the heel of her hand against her chest, trying to contain the need that threatened to open her from the inside out. She had to see Kell. Needed to see his face and hear his voice and touch him, everywhere. He alone would understand what it was she felt to be on the 8th Wing base, the strange conflict of emotions to become, suddenly, a hero. He would know the curious emptiness that came with one life ending and another waiting to begin.
Gods, he had become her friend .
She checked the time. Three solar hours had passed since she had fallen into bed. He had to be finished with the debriefing by now. He would come to see her. The idea of waiting for him in nothing but a towel appealed, but just in case someone other than Kell showed up at her door, she ought to get dressed.
Her grimy clothes held little charm after getting herself clean. Rummaging around a storage locker, Mara found a womans 8th Wing uniform. No identification, no markers of rank. Unclaimed,
clearly. Feeling a little strange, as though putting on someone elses identity, Mara donned the jumpsuit. Looking into the mirror, her self-mocking smile died before it fully formed. Shed thought she would appear ridiculous, a criminal pretending to be a defender of the law. A fraud.
But no. She had her own dignity, and the uniform only highlighted what was already there. It felt surprisingly good, purposeful. As though she was part of something bigger than herself, yet contributed her own strength. And, she thought with an inward smile, the gray fabric flattered her cream-colored hair.
She stuck her tongue out at herself and moved away from the mirror. It was just a uniform. Some fabric woven on a digiloom and stitched together by a sewing bot.
An unwelcome thought crept into her mind. Perhaps Kell had finished the debriefing long ago and chose not to see her. Perhaps, now that he was back in his home territory, he realized how foolish hed beentreating a casual fuck like someone he truly cared about. She was a scavenger, after all, no longer a princess. Perhaps he hoped she would read the unspoken message in his absence, that he wanted her gone, and what they had shared was forgettable and momentary.
To hell with that. If he wanted her to quietly, meekly disappear, he was mistaken. Scavenger she may be, but she had pride too.
She marched from her quarters but stopped short of accosting the first 8th Wing ensign she saw.
No need to broadcast
to the whole base that she was looking for Kell. So she used her own internal guidance as she roamed the base, righteous fury pushing her on with every step.
Her strides halted on a catwalk when she heard Kells angry voice one story below her.
Im not giving you any more, he snapped.
But we still need to review the captured Wraiths data collectors. This, from an unknown voice.
Mara peered over the railing. She saw Kell standing in the open doorway of what appeared to be a conference room, with a group of 8th Wing senior officers gathered behind him. Seeing him again,
muscular and lean, handsome beyond reckoning, she felt her heart contract, even after an absence of merely half a solar day. He was still dressed in his smugglers clothes, though they were torn and dirty. She realized abruptly that, while she had enjoyed a shower and rest after the long ordeal of the mission, he had not.