How could Lord Whitney possibly know about Annes dream of the Roman woman?
The parlor tilted as her head spun, the air thick and close. She needed fresh, cool wind. Outside, in the garden. Yesto go outside, that would clear her head and help make sense of the morass in which shed sunk.
Will you excuse me for a moment?
Rosalind merely smiled, and so Anne quickly left the chamber on unsteady legs. She tottered down the stairs, then moved through the darkened corridor that led to the garden. As she walked, she passed the closed door of the dining room, hearing the rumble of male voices. The Hellraisers in private discussion.
She hesitated. No footmen stood in attendance in the hallway. Rosalind remained upstairs. Anne was alone.
She pressed her ear to the door. Thick wood muted sound, and she had more a general sense of different men speaking than their actual words. The low rumble of Bram. Edmunds measured pace. And Leohis voice she knew now almost as well as her own. In the depths of night, she had heard him speak words both tender and demanding, had heard him hoarse with passion, and drowsy with satiation. In a room crowded with a hundred mens voices, she would find his, unerring.
He spoke now, and Anne pressed even closer, trying to divine his words.
... asked around ... no one ... as if Whit ... vanished.
Oh, God. They spoke of Lord Whitney. She wrapped her arms around herself, but did not move away from the door.
... certain? That was John, cutting and precise.
... only Mr. Holliday ... yet he has been mute ...
It seemed as though Edmund spoke next. ... safe, then?
Never safe, said Bram.
... remain alert ... notify the others if ...
Madam?
Anne whirled to face one of the footmen, a decanter in each of his hands. Bringing more wine for the gentlemen.
Of a certain, news would spread amongst the servants that the lady of the house was caught listening at doors like a housemaid. The question remained whether Leo would hear this news, passed from the servants table to the valet, and from the valet to the master. Little help for it. Either Leo would know, or he would not. And then ... she did not know what then.
Secrets. They kept building, widening a chasm between her and Leo.
Anne stepped back from the door, and moved deeper into the shadows of the corridor. Go on. Bring the gentlemen their wine.
She turned and walked out into the garden, out into the cold. She had no shawl, and shivered in her silk gown, yet she did not want to return inside. Not yet.
Shells crunched beneath her delicate slippers, digging through the flimsy sole to stab into her feet. She could go nowhere on such fragile shoes. Within minutes, they would be torn to pieces on Londons rough streets. Yet she wanted to run, and run far. To a place where the sun shone and revealed everything. Where she could laugh at shadows, dismiss them, destroy them.
Anne wrapped her arms around herself. She felt the burden of secrets along her shoulders, the heavy press of concealment and uncertainty. She longed for the comfort of maps and their defined bordersbut even this solace was illusory. Maps could be drawn only when men took to the seas, facing uncertainty. How often did those sailors stand upon the deck of a ship and see the stain of an approaching storm? And how often did they have no choice but to sail into the teeth of that storm?
Anne suddenly felt a kinship with those nameless sailors, for now she stood at the railing and saw the portentous black clouds of a storm nearing. She could not outpace its fury or circumnavigate around it. It must strike. She hoped she would not drown.
Chapter 10
Leo paused in the act of pulling off his coat. He stood in the middle of the bedchamber, the candles extinguished, only the fire in the grate illuminating the room. Anne hovered near the foot of the bed, still in her gown of heavy green silk, her hair up, her eyes wide.
What? He could not have heard correctly.
Anne wrapped her hands around a bedpost, like a woman clinging to a treetop as floodwaters rose around her. Lord Whitney. He put a letter for me in the carriage.
When?
Several days ago.
Leo went very still. Why have you said nothing until now?
Her hands tightened around the bedpost. I wanted to forget.
Show it to me.
I burned it.
He strode to her, and though she did not shrink away, he saw the smallest wince in
her face. Tell me what it said.
At this, her wide gaze slid away. I cannot remember.
Leo knew a lie when it was spoken. He witnessed many of them on the Exchange. Never did he expect to see the same prevarication from his own wife. Something in his chest hurt, and he spoke around its cutting edges. Anne.
She was no hardened man of commerce, no gamester. Of everyone he knew, including himself, she was the most truthful. And falsehood could not last long within her. Firelight gleamed in her eyes as she returned her gaze to him.
Mad allegations, she finally admitted. Too outlandish to be believed.
Tell me.
He said ... that you and the other Hellraisers had made a bargain with the Devil. That you each gained powers in exchange for your souls, and ... youve unleashed a terrible evil upon the world. A growing danger. But that is all ludicrous. A Bedlamites ravings. She forced out a laugh, hollow as a husk.