It is what it is, hed said. Some people have to live in their mates head to feel secure. How did you feel when we were doing that? Hed grinned at me when Id tried to apologize. Dont fuss. I love you just as you are, Mercy. I dont need to swallow you whole, I dontneed to be in your head at all times. I just need to know that youre there.
There are a lot of reasons I love Adam.
I fought my way down our bond, increasing my already considerable headache, and squeezed past the barriers my subconscious mind apparently had created to keep from being overwhelmed by the charismatic Alpha among Alphas who was Adam Hauptman, and touched him at last
Hey, Mercy, said a deep voice. You okay?
I looked up and recognized the tow truck driver. I know most of the guys who tow cars in the areaI have a mechanic shop, it comes with the territory.
Hey, Dale, I said, trying to appear as though I hadnt been fumbling around with werewolf magic. It would have been easier to pretend to be normal without the sudden renewal of the nasty, shivery, breath-stealing feeling that had caused me to run into the SUV in the first place. I struggledto suppress the second panic attack. Probably Dale would think that my chattering jaws were from the cold. Jesse and I are okay, but Ive had better days.
I can see that. He sounded concerned, so I must have looked pretty awful. You want me to tow the Rabbit to your shop? Or do you want to admit defeat immediately and I can take her out to the Pasco wrecking yard?
I fixed my gaze on him as I had a sudden thought.
He looked down at his coat.Whatcha looking at? Is there a spot? I thought I grabbed this from the clean clothes.
Dale, if Im paying you to tow my car to my shop, is there room in the truck for Jesse and me, too? We cant get my husband on the phone. I have a car at the shop I can drive home.
He smiled cheerfully.Sure, no prob, Mercy.
That would be good, I said. Thanks. That would work. My shop was a safe, warm place to think. I needed that, needed my Fortress of Solitude against panic. Because when I reached down the bond between Adam and myself, I could sense nothing but rage and pain.
Someone was hurting my husband, and that was all I could tell.
Dales truck smelled like old french fries, coffee, and stale bananas. I forced myself to make light conversation, catching up on his daughter and her new baby, the rising costs of diesel fuel, and whatever else I could come up with. I couldnt let Jesse know how worried I was until I had more information.
My shop looked just as it should. The little boneyard (where the remnants of a few dead cars lingered to donate parts to their living brethren) and the parking lot were well lit. New halogen lights illuminated
the four cars in the still-alive-but-need-help parking lot, and I patted Jesses knee when she drew in a breath.
I hopped out of the truck and helped Dale unchain the Rabbit, sending Jesse into the shop. She glanced again at the four cars in the parking lot where there should have been three and ran inside without protest. She had no trouble opening the door that should have been lockedand when she went in, she didnt turn on the lights because she was her fathers daughter. She knew better than to turn on lights in a room with windows when there might be something to hide.
Poor thing, Dale said, patting my cars trunk, not paying any attention to Jesse. Arent many of these left running around town anymore. He looked at me, and said, casually, I have a line on a 89 Jetta two-door with 110 on the meter. A little banged up, but nothing a little Bondo and paint cant fix.
Ill keep it in mind, I said. What do I owe you?
Boss will bill you, he said, turning my smile genuine despite my tensionDales boss was his wife.
I waved as he drove away, then sprinted for the door of my office because the fourth car, parked between a68 Beetle and an old Type II, was a battered and worn 74 Mercedes that belonged to Gabriel.
I slipped through the door and closed it. The dark office had been enough to let me know that Gabriel knew something and that it was important to keep it quietotherwise, the interior would have been blazing with light. As I turned, I caught Gabriels scent, all right, but there was also someone else
Strong arms wrapped around my waist, jerking me almost off my feet. My nose told me the arms belonged to Ben of the British accent and foul mouth as he buried his face against my stomach, so I put the crowbar Id snagged off the counter back where it belonged without smashing in his head. He moved his head until my shirt rucked up, and his beard-rough cheek was against my skin.
Id had another werewolf do that before, felt the same tremors and ragged breathing. I was reasonably sure that Ben wasnt feeling hungry (like the other wolf had been) because it hadnt been that long since turkey dinner. So I put a hand on his head and glanced at the pair of shell-shocked teenagers standing in front of a shelf of old, mismatched hubcaps. It was dark inside the shop, but coyotes like me can see in the dark.