I was still trying to figure out what had happenedthough one thing I was sure of was that it hadnt been Jesses fault. I leaned my head against the cement at the base of one of the big light poles and put the ice pack back on my left cheekbone and my nosewhich had finally quit bleeding. Captains in charge of the ship. My fault.
Panic attack, I thought. Jesses question had taken me by surprisebut I hadnt thought the idea of a baby scared me that much.
I kind of liked the thought of a baby, actually. So why the panic attack? I could feel the remnants of it clogging my thoughts and lingering like the edges of an ice-cream headacheor maybe that was the effect of my face colliding with the steering column.
The Rabbit was an old car, and that meant no air bags. However, it was a good German car, so it collapsed around the passenger compartment, leaving Jesse and me with bruises and bumps and a bloody nose and black eye. I was pretty tired of black eyes. With my coloring, bruises didnt stand out like they did on Jesse. Given a week or two, no one would ever know wed been in a car wreck.
Even with the bag of ice between me and the rest of the world, I could tell that the passenger in the SUV Id hit was still talking to the police because her voice was raised. The energy she was expending made me pretty sure she wasnt hurt much, either. The driver hadnt said anything, but he seemed okay to me. He stood a few steps back from his car and stared at it.
The younger policeman said something to the woman, and it hit her like a cattle prod. The man whod driven the car glanced over at Jesse and me, while the woman went off like a teakettle.
Shehit us, the woman shrieked. That was the gist of it anyway. There were a lot of unladylike words that began with F, with various C words thrown in for leavening. She had an alcohol slur that did nothing to moderate the shivery high pitch that she reached. I winced as her voice cut right through my aching skull and increased the pressure against my throbbing cheekbone.
I understood the sentiment. Even if the accident isnt your fault, there is hell to follow when talking to insurance companies, taking the car to a body shop, and dealing with the time the car is in the shop. Worse, if its totaled, you have to argue with the other guys insurance about how much it was worth. I was feeling pretty guilty, but Jesses flinch made me set that aside and pay attention to her.
Bens better, I murmured. Hes more creative when he swears.
He does it in that English accent, which is too cool. Jesse relaxed a little and started listening with more interest and less worry.
The woman began batting at the younger policeman and swearing. I didnt bother to listen to the details, but apparently she was mad at him now, and not us.
And Ben is too smart to swear at cops, Jesse said with a sincere but misguided belief in Bens wisdom. She had turned to look at me and got a good view over my shoulder of the only real fatality of the incident. Jeez, Mercy. Look at the Rabbit.
Id been avoiding it, but I had to look sometime.
The little rust-colored car was connected to the SUV in front of it and somehow had managed to ride up on something so that the front wheels, the nearest one no longer round, were about six inches up in the air. Its nose was also about two feet closer to the windshield than it had been.
Its dead, I told her.
Maybe if Zee were still around to help, he could have done something with the Rabbit. Zee had taught me most of what I know about fixing cars, but there were some things that couldnt be fixed without an iron-kissed fae to put them to rights. And Zee was holed up in the fae reservation in Walla Walla and had been since one of the Gray Lords killed a US senators son and declared the fae to be a separate and sovereign nation.
Within
minutes of the declaration, all of the fae had disappearedand so had all of the reservations. The ten-mile loop of road that used to lead to the local reservation near Walla Walla was now eight miles long, and from nowhere along that route could you even see the reservation. Id heard that one of the reservations had grown a thicket of blackberry bushes and disappeared inside.
There was a rumor that the government had tried to bomb a reservation, but the entire flight of planes had disappearedreappearing minutes later flying over Australia. Australian bloggers posted photos, and the US president issued a formal apology, so that part of the rumor seemed to be true.
For me personally, the whole thing meant I had no one to call on when I needed help in the shop or needed some time off. I hadnt even gotten a chance to talk to Zee before he was gone. I missed him, and not just because my poor Rabbit looked to be headed to that big VW rally in the sky.
At least we werent driving the Vanagon, I said.
The teenager Id beenthe one who had worked fast-food jobs to pay for the car, the insurance, and the fuel and upkeepwould have cried for the poor Rabbit, but that would have made Jesse feel bad, and I wasnt a teenager anymore.