Hands hewn off, collected in heaps, hamsas and kill tallies mingled, seraph hands and chimaera, scattered.
Foretold by light, this beginning died, just like the last, and a new beginning took its place: Jael would return to Eretz and find no rebel force to fight throughneither chimaera nor bastards to oppose him but only their blood frozen to red ice on this cavern floor, because theyd been so kind as to kill each other for him. The way would be open, and Eretz would suffer. Akiva saw all of this, the grand, echoing, world-shaking shame of it, and he saw in the tilt toward chaos in the seconds still to come, how Karou would unsheathe her moon blades.
She would kill today, and perhaps she would die.
If this second was allowed to turn.
It must not be allowed to turn.
In Astrae, Akiva had loosed from his mind a pulse of rage, frustration, and anguish so profound that it had exploded the great Tower of Conquest, symbol of the Empire of Seraphim. He couldnt fathom what it was, or how hed done it.
And, still unfathoming, he felt another pulse slip loose from that same unfamiliar place within him.
It went out and was gone from him, whatever it was what was it? and it took sirithar with it, so that Akiva was thrust back into the ordinary flow of timefast, dim, and loud. It was like passing from a mirror-smooth lake into rapids. He staggered a step, robbed of the brilliance that had seized him, and he could only watch, unbreathing, to see what his magic would wreak.
And to see if it would matter.
18
A CANDLE FLAME EXTINGUISHED BY A SCREAM
All those seraphim, hands to hilts, and chimaera in the coiled instant before the spring.
Thiago was on his knees in the gap between armieshe would be the first to die. Karous hands reached for her own blades, and within her was still the hollow scream of No! If there had been time to think in that secondthat second that was as full of intent as any second had ever been, as full of the promise of bloodshe would not have believed any power could stop it. Her hope had died with the angels first recoil.
Her hope had died. She thought. She wouldnt have believed there could be a depth of despair beneath this one. But then it hit her.
Sudden and devastating. It dragged her under.
The certainty of ending . Seeing the angel blades ready to slide free and slash, hearing the snarl of chimaera ready to tear the future apart with their teeth, it was as if every shred of thought or feeling that had ever or would ever exist was stamped out and replaced by this this this bitter smear of pointlessness.
Dead end , it shrieked, and for what?
The despair was entire, complete as a possession, but fleeting. It released her, and was gone, but it left Karou gutted, guttered, feeling for all the world like
a candle flame extinguished by a scream.
And in the aftermath of its enormity she might have been nothing more than the curl of smoke left to drift and disperse at the end of all thingsat the evanescence of the world itself.
Dead end, and for what?
Dead end. Dead end.
And her hands failed to finish what they had begun. She didnt draw. She couldnt. Her blades stayed slung at her hips as she dragged in a breath, almost surprised by the feelingthat there was life still in her, and air to breathe.
One
second.
Another breath, another second.
She was in the air and she let herself drop, landing in a sagging crouch to fall to her knees, and her mind was still an echo of No! as she became aware that, around her nothing was happening.
Nothing. Was happening.
Bunched beast muscles had fallen slack. Tally-blacked hands were frozen on sword pommels; seraph blades caught the light, many half-drawn, and halted there.
The two bloodthirsty armies had just stopped.
How?
The moment seemed very long. Karou, dulled by the immensity of her despair, scarcely knew what to make of it. She had felt the moment tilt and hurl them toward disaster. How was it that they had all simply stopped ? Had she misread the tilt, the disaster? Had it all been posturing on both sides, just rattling of swords? Could it be as simple as that? No. No, she was missing something. Around her there was mute confusion, slow blinking, and drags of breath as hoarse as her own. She tried to shake off her fog.
And then she saw, in the no-mans-land between facing armies, the White Wolf rise to his feet. All eyes fixed on him, hers, too, and the fog began to abate.
Could it be had this somehow been his doing?
She rose. It was difficult to move. Her despair may have gone, but it had left its heaviness draped over her, thick and bleak. She saw that the Wolfs knees were bloodied from the impact of his fall; Uthem lay dead, and the pool of his blood was spreading. Thiago had risen just as the blood overtook him, and it pooled now around his wolf feet, slicking their white fur and spreading onward, toward the first file of angels. Uthem was large; there was a lot of blood, and the Wolf made a dramatic picture standing in it, all in white but where his own blood blossomed at his knees and brow. And his palms.